Pretending

As a child I would pretend

to be a doctor, an orphan,

an FBI agent. Imagination

took me to places my adult

self has never had the time,

money, or bravery to venture.

Countries, planets, and people

were never far from reach.

But years have stalled

the imagination and I now

pretend I'm an adult with

a smile, friends, and compliments.

An Outline

I almost miss you and it makes me

feel bad for so many reasons.

1. You wouldn’t care:

a. Because too much time has passed.

b. And I said some things.

2. I don’t really miss you.

a. I only miss that you made me feel:

i. Pretty

ii. Worth something

iii. Loveable

b. I only miss the:

i. Laughter

ii. Encouragement

iii. Talking

3. Sometimes I still get angry:

a. Over everything.

b. Over nothing.

4. I only (almost) miss you:

a. For myself

i. I’m selfish.

ii. I’m proud.

5. And this outline accounts for a structured view my muddled mind.

Scratch and Dent Dreams - Eric Darby

This is an amazing poem and performance my Eric Darby. I have listened to this many times and each time it leaves me inspired and excited about the day! Follow the link to listen and for the free mp3.

http://www.ericdarby.net/ScratchDent1218.mp3

Photobox

This was written in honor of my grandfather upon his death some months back.

Each snapshot my memory holds
of you is soft, yet clear. Black,
and white. Maybe this is because your hair
was silver and gray since I had been snapping
pictures. Maybe it's the way a neutral
colored deck of cards were comfortable
in your hands. Perhaps its because
your hands were never smooth
but always worked. I pull photo by photo
out of my box, reminiscing each card
game. Grandma and Aunt Linda's playful
banter developed into laugher at your witty
remarks. Turkey legs, stuffing and ham
disappeared as you devoured more than possible
for your slim frame. As I turn pictures
over, I think how someone else will play
rummykub, my mom's canasta partner will change,
and come January, February, and March
leftover turkey and stuffing will remain
waiting to fill a plate.

The Spider Dance

Come gather around and join
the popular spider dance.
Your feet will jump and arms
will fly. Shock your friends
and family with the way few
know how dramatically you can
move and dance all for the fear
of a one inch creature with
eight legs and mysterious thread.