Undefined Relationships

This misunderstanding feels like an ending
and the beginning we once had is now
only a memory. My mind reads the words
you wrote and remembers the things you spoke
and I have to wonder, "What is love".
You said you knew me but how can that be
when I did not even know myself.

I tried to define love but my mind
responded with "no definition available".
I tried to define you and I
but there was no vision and without
vision the people perish, we as a thing,
something, any thing become nothing.
We've been diminished into a state
of "I don't know".

And this goes on and on and on and on
but I've stopped believing
and I do not know what this feeling is.
I wanted to need you but I didn't
and somehow that is classified as
"too much ambition", at least, for
a woman. But I'm not even sorry that I
did not apologize about my desire
to carpe diem, seize the day,
because in the same way, I seized you.

Do you remember when you were added
as an extension to my heart?
It started to beat at an unusual pace
and if we stood face to face
there was an energy created between us.

I never claimed to know chemistry
but this formula of you plus me,
worked. I had hoped that this
combustion would last despite the
facts that we are so different.

But it didn't. So there you are minus
me and I am still wondering about definitions.
The only thing I am certain of is misunderstandings.