Saturday, July 31, 2010
The Spotlight is on ME (Kidding).
Friday, July 30, 2010
And So I Smiled....
Change and Change
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
The Locket
I can't tell you where this obsession began or how it will end. But I just know that I want to hit up every vintage shop in the area and buy all the pretty lockets.
The thing that intrigues me the most about a locket, especially one that's been previously owned, is that each one holds a story that I can imagine. And someday I hope that I can own a locket that has my own story stuffed inside.
Friday, July 23, 2010
A Mother-Daughter Relationship
one, connected at the hip
with DNA strands coursing from
body to body.
Like nutrients flowing to the
womb, we appear healthy. Like
fireplaces, hot cocoa, and books,
we seem warm.
But I live in a two story house where
the story on top only occasionally
collides with the story
below.
And the stories create friction
like pain during childbirth, scratches
on scabbed knees and elbows, scars from
too much or not enough
talking.
Happy Days
Fortunately, for each melancholy day, life affords you with one of those days where nothing can touch you. Invisible shields of flowers and smiley faces engulf every side of us.
Yesterday was one of those days. Happy days include sunshine and barefooted trips down to the mailbox to receive a letter, card, coupon, or in yesterday's case, the Rock Creek Review in which I was published.
Two poems with my name above them sit on a page that won't be edited. Like crying babies finally resting, I watch them sleep as their relieved mother.
Ah, happiness!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Mending Wall by Robert Frost
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,
And spills the upper boulders in the sun;
And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
The work of hunters is another thing:
I have come after them and made repair
Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
But they would have the rabbit out of hiding,
To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
No one has seen them made or heard them made,
But at spring mending-time we find them there.
I let my neighbor know beyond the hill;
And on a day we meet to walk the line
And set the wall between us once again.
We keep the wall between us as we go.
To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
We have to use a spell to make them balance:
'Stay where you are until our backs are turned!'
We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
Oh, just another kind of outdoor game,
One on a side. It comes to little more:
There where it is we do not need the wall:
He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
My apple trees will never get across
And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
He only says, 'Good fences make good neighbors.'
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his head:
'Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
Where there are cows? But here there are no cows.
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offense.
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That wants it down.' I could say 'Elves' to him,
But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
He said it for himself. I see him there
Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
He moves in darkness as it seems to me,
Not of woods only and the shade of trees.
He will not go behind his father's saying,
And he likes having thought of it so well
He says again, 'Good fences make good neighbors.'
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Separation by W.S. Merwin
Your absence has gone through me
Like thread through a needle.
Everything I do is stitched with its color.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Dirt
I am the dry and brittle ground lacking
rain. I am cracked and hard. I crumble
at the stomping feet of my friends holding
hands, wearing construction boots.
Rain, rain, don’t come today, my comrades
want to play. They play games of
love over me while I pretend I don’t
need watering. But the tell tale signs
chip right off to show that my heart
is like dirt, dry, brittle, barren.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
I Hate the Differences
I drink music when I thirst
And eat poetry when I hunger.
Like cookies and milk or soda and chips,
they fill me up but are easier to digest.
There is something comforting
about being fat off of melodies
like raindrops and words like
orchids. My friend starves.
She is fed only by the hand of her family.
They feed her a culture she is allergic
to until she agrees and allows it to
eat away at her beauty, her personality.
I am a glutton. Guilty as can be,
I feed off of the delicacies she is denied
and I, I try to understand, but when she
pushes me aside for the life I know
she despises I cannot help
but to go and binge.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Ice Cream Man
my ears today just like it did
10 years ago. I tipped over my
change jar as I was slipping
on miss matching shoes and began
the run down my driveway as a
disheveled mess. I had to choose,
once again between a rocket
pop or an ice cream drum stick.
Three minutes later, three dollars
poorer I took a brief moment
to pretend that this was the biggest
decision I had to make.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Random..
When you write a poem it should paint a picture.
When take a picture it should write a poem.
It has been many days since I have written. Inspiration has taken a nap and motivation died. I can do without one, but losing both is like losing your best friend and your worst enemy; life becomes boring and lethargic.
There is only one known cure and fortunately I live near the physician.
Powell's.
Somehow a city block and 68,000 sq. feet of books can help a girl out.
Be jealous non-Portlanders, be jealous.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Camera!
Give me a few weeks and a few trips to get the film developed and we will both see the results. Cross your finger!
Monday, July 12, 2010
Dirty Boots
towards my lake house. You drudge
in, and track mud from the water’s bottom.
While my windows paint portraits of green
trees and blue waters, your wellingtons
engrave circles on my clean, white rug.
Boats that glide the surface are begrudged
by you as you wade into the deep,
ignoring the safe, ignoring the comfort.
Then you drag the lake’s mire
to the surface into my hands,
to clean and pamper each hefty boot.
I cannot be your safe boat.
Only you can wash then remove
each boot that gutters the calm water.
You must be the safe boat,
the calm boat, that sails the surface,
and never again wear the boots
that dig into the mud.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Another Meaningless Post
There comes a time in everyone’s life when everything becomes so clear. Most of the time, this is greeted by much tears and dramatic anguish. And so here I am tonight, wishing that someone would finally stop giving me the cold shoulder and call me, wishing that another person would reassemble our crumbled friendship, and realizing that sometimes “airplanes in the night sky” aren’t real wishes.
The thing that’s the clearest right now is the night sky. And it signifies that wishes are fairytales for children. I have arrived at the peak of life; it is the moment where everything becomes dreary and dark (cue dramatic storm music). This will continue until I fall in love with that perfect someone and we live…
But wait! That is simply another fairytale. The perfect someone is always attracted to another perfect someone and not the me someone. I’m the girl who attracts late night train and bus fellows, student center creeps, and apparently, unfaithful friends. If it wasn’t for the fact that I’ve been “taught better” and that all the symbols I can type look despicable together, I’d be cheap swearing.
Yes, I am being a pessimistic person. But come talk to me at 2:30am when your best friends are far away, you are bored out of your mind, and somehow cannot sleep. Let’s see how preppy and positive you are miss cheerleader!
So if you have not previously been introduced to this side of me, well now you know; basically I am the most sarcastic person you will find.
I’m not as dramatically in anguish as I pretend to be. Half the things I say I do so for the purpose of viewing another’s reaction.
So it is clear that I have resolved to a meaningless ramble. But I figured that my blogless blog needed something. It is like salt; a lot of it is amazing, but even just a tad will do those French fries some good! Hopefully a meaningful post will follow. Comments are still welcomed!
Monday, July 5, 2010
We (don't) meet again - Part Two
I have seen you again. This time you were wearing a burgundy shirt and jeans. I would like to remind you (and everyone reading) that I am not a stalker. But since school has ended, I haven’t seen you; that’s been a month! And then on the 4th of July at the Beaverton Transit Center, we (don’t) meet again! What is so strange about this is that it isn’t one of our regular (non)-meeting places. But you were here, I was here, and here we were totally minding our own business until you got out of someone’s car and the seatbelt kept getting stuck in the door. You caused quite a distraction – I laughed inside.
And then I realized it was you and my heart didn’t flip flop… I simply had a realization! And that realization wasn’t anything new or foreign; I only realized it was you, again. So, now, I am wondering whether or not you will be in one of the 5 classes I am taking this coming fall. And I wonder whether if I ever actually meet you if you will be someone I can show these posts to without getting severely creeped out. Maybe now would be a good time to direct you to my anti-love post. But by all means, don’t look at my insanity post.
So I conclude this post with questions to all my readers (sarcasm); have you ever seen a stranger multiple times? Did you ever meet them? And lastly, would it creep you out if you found that a stranger was blogging about you?